things havent been that great still at home. my husband is getting more distant, taking his irritations out on us and while he is human, he did something I thought he would never do before. I decided to ask my mom to pray but asked it to be kept quiet. she took it upon herself to tell my sister, who has not always been nice to our family.
so my sister takes me to lunch and proceeds to tell me that she knew and wanted to know if I could think about being a better wife and make things easier for my husband. that maybe I could be better so he wouldnt be neglectful and irritated, not realizing that I havent really spoken much.
so I left the lunch feeling worse then ever and realizing that no matter what I do, I have failed completely and really do suck as a human being and am not worthy of love. not sure why I post this, but I just feel so alone.